hits and counting :D

I sit & laugh with friends at what we've all been through
But I still catch my breath when someone mentions you.
We move on, put those dreams away
Hoping that we'll find them come some rainy day.
How could I know that everything would change?
Except the way I miss you.

2:33 PM

HAHAHA. i was trying to show how "handsome" my grandpa was. (i managed to find this on ps's friendster. some super old photo 1 or 2 yrs back!) despite the fact that he only has got lil hair at the sides, he still styles them, like comb them using gel. lol. and he drives the v old sch white mercedes. hip right......

AND I LIKE KONG BAH BAO. dad's only coming back this coming wed. so none for this wk.



I WANNA CHANGE PHONE. PLSPLSPLS. :( im rly desperate alr. i cant believe i've been using the phone for OVER 2 years. :(


sexaye and the rest of the 13 ppl are back from japan. aww man. bet they had loads of fun. argh. nvm, next time i'll go and it'll be just pure shopping. HA-HA-HA. and im waiting for sexaye to watch love happens this coming wkend or sth. :)))

not forgetting ICE CREAM BUFFET. omgzxzx. ion's swensens shall be it. die luh. growing fat. i can imagine weihan whining alr. :/ okay since im injured, i'll rly need to work out hard after i recover. cos napfa's on the 19th! goodness. ankle plsplspls recover by then.


okay now time to do fyp.


10:56 PM torn. ligament.

thanks so much to myself for doing all those shit which caused me nth but a whole shit ass of pain.


i tear so hard last night. not cos of the pain(oli got it right), but having to undergo the whole shit ass cycle w/o those used-to-be besties" made it extremely unbearable. i dont know why im still holding on.


(then i was thinking who would be there. nobody. reb hasnt been replying. xx has gone to perth. i neglected ade, wont it be realistic to realise we drifted only now? would be weird if i called eunice? she'll be like, why so random. then, good thing was there was atikah?)

weak and helpless as i were, atikah talked to me till i fell aslp. today i took bus down to yishun and atikah accompanied me to sinseh. i thought i sprained my ankle but it was a freaking torn ligament? i looked at the sinseh and his assistant in great shock when i heard that. and he tried to put my ankle back in line? whatever that means. I SCREAMED.


life's a bitch. shi hui's a bitch too. but thank god i have atikah.


as i grew older, i never shed a tear. till i had a partner, but later on it was gone too. but why am i still in this shit?

answer: I DONT KNOW X INFINITY.




now something happier. i cleared up the mess in my room and got stuff to make it even more comfy. more pillows and starry lights. my mom got some osim feet thing and she made me go ikea to get A CARPET for her osim thing despite the fact i injure my ankle. well nvm. cos i took the chance to get stuff for my room! :)

11:34 PM okay. just a short entry. now im feeling better cos atikah eevann rayson and a few others made me laugh. and there's huiqi and ade too. well i talked back over dinner. my mom just have to raise her voice at me over small matters like not switching off the power supply when i didnt know, not like i forgot or chose not to do it. seriously pissed off. and what made me even more upset was she said sth v insensitive like ppl cant stand my stubborness thats why they left(sth along that line). like hello? and she complained about me not listening to her. like why cant i just be good and agree to what she say instead of arguing back. and havent i been good to her. if not i won't even have the thought of getting her a durian cake which caused me damn a lot of trouble to travel in to sixth avenue. i guess our ways of showing affection's different. i hate it. and it just reminds me of the past.


anyhow, some random photos.


1:16 AM really feels like shit. or maybe im not even that. almost broke down on the cab, and i cried when i saw xiang at the airport. she was leaving for perth. i miss her alr :'( 7 yrs and going, besties forever, love.

sometimes its not about the opportunity cost i guess, it's neither about the time nor effort, it was just pure gut feelings/passion which kept one going. maybe today, i truely understand. i rly did try, i tried since 24months ago. i guess its enough, more than enough. at the end of the day only the toughest survive. reality is just this harsh.



on a lighter note, i've been searching online for overseas design schools. and i kinda like pratt instutite. the modules for fashion design alone make me damn excited to fly over to study. heheh. eunice isnt gg with me as i've expected :( so, if im gg, im gg alone! arghhhhhh. shall see how it goes. but the thought abt setting up a business is like damn cool, i like.

alright, goodnight earthlings.

2:09 AM

9:41 AM HELLO HELLO ALL. havent been blogging for ages. i feel somewhat like a living zombie recently. i would stare into my dearest technie friend before i get so exhausted and fall to slp every night. and, i just never seem to be getting enough rest.


BOOHOO.

11:09 PM OKAY. ANOTHER POST. LAST SATURDAY! :D



dearest xiang's leaving for perth to study on 31st oct :( so we're spending more time with her before she flies. can you guess where's this place?





10:36 PM i will let pictures do the talking. LAST WED!